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Been busy...loving myself!
Now I realize that that statement can be thought about in MANY different ways, but the intention is the true act of self love. Along my journey I have come to learn and discover many things. Through watching and listening to others, to my own trips and falls as well as successes, and from loving messages sent through many. But the one vital message that I did not fully hear and understand along this journey was how to really really love the self.
Being a girl/woman, I was not ever shown or taught how to love the self. It was my role to take care of everyone, give away all I had, want for nothing, eat last, drink last, walk behind, not speak until spoken to, be unselfish, 'know' my place in the order of all things outside of myself...which was always last. It was good to be kind to others at the expense of the self. It was good to never think of your own needs and wants...until everyone else's was tended to first. Being a mother, friend, business woman, wife, girlfriend, etc. I did just that. I did what I thought I was supposed to be doing, what I was taught, what I thought was expected of a good woman, and I would justify all these actions to myself that....I was being of service to them. Then the thrist to be of service began to fill my every thought and action. I thought I was doing great. I was following my path and being of service to others in need.
Then the message appeared again...love the self FIRST. What a concept. One that I did not think of and really threw to the side. Who was I to do such a thing. The right thing is what I have been doing all along...being of service to all others first. What a selfish and ego act to do...loving the self first. But, the more I gave to others first the less I had for me. And no matter the amount that was being given back to me, it never felt like enough. The well of my soul, the essence of the self, my heart...was cracked and dry. And blessed be to others to try to give back to me and be of service, but the couple of drops of water never quenched the thirst of what I needed. So, how do I repair and fill my 'well'? I had come to a place in my life that I really wanted to know. To remember how to do that because although I had never been taught or shown how to do that in a healthy way...I knew that my spirit knew. It longed to experience itself in a loving way.
Through many discussions, sharing of ideas, mediations, Universal messages...I FINALLY learned how to love the self. How do I express love and nuturing for myself when I still have all the daily routines that must be tended to? I began my starting to be present with each action of my day; asking myself..."Is this a loving act for the self?" Then I slowly began to make affirmation statements to my loving self in each action, from making the coffee, to pouring in the vanilla creamer, to sitting in a comfortable spot, to relaxing in the chair, to taking in the atmoshere, the smells, the lighting, how my clothes fit, my breath, to sipping the coffee, feeling the warmth on my tongue and the sweetness of the flavors..."THIS is a loving act that I am doing for myself!" I brush my teeth because I love me. I do my dishes because I love me and I am deserving of a clean cup and spoon (for the coffee and vanilla creamer of course, lol). Doing the laundry because I love the smell of fabric softener in my sheets and clothes. To plant flowers in the yard, mow the lawn, sweep the porch...because it makes me feel good to have my home look this way. I do it ALL with the affirmation that I am doing so because I LOVE ME!
Now, at 37yrs old...my well is finally repaired and full again! And so can yours!
Do each and every act today with the rememberance that it is a loving act to do for the self...FIRST!
I love me and I love you too!
Namaste
Jen
Being a girl/woman, I was not ever shown or taught how to love the self. It was my role to take care of everyone, give away all I had, want for nothing, eat last, drink last, walk behind, not speak until spoken to, be unselfish, 'know' my place in the order of all things outside of myself...which was always last. It was good to be kind to others at the expense of the self. It was good to never think of your own needs and wants...until everyone else's was tended to first. Being a mother, friend, business woman, wife, girlfriend, etc. I did just that. I did what I thought I was supposed to be doing, what I was taught, what I thought was expected of a good woman, and I would justify all these actions to myself that....I was being of service to them. Then the thrist to be of service began to fill my every thought and action. I thought I was doing great. I was following my path and being of service to others in need.
Then the message appeared again...love the self FIRST. What a concept. One that I did not think of and really threw to the side. Who was I to do such a thing. The right thing is what I have been doing all along...being of service to all others first. What a selfish and ego act to do...loving the self first. But, the more I gave to others first the less I had for me. And no matter the amount that was being given back to me, it never felt like enough. The well of my soul, the essence of the self, my heart...was cracked and dry. And blessed be to others to try to give back to me and be of service, but the couple of drops of water never quenched the thirst of what I needed. So, how do I repair and fill my 'well'? I had come to a place in my life that I really wanted to know. To remember how to do that because although I had never been taught or shown how to do that in a healthy way...I knew that my spirit knew. It longed to experience itself in a loving way.
Through many discussions, sharing of ideas, mediations, Universal messages...I FINALLY learned how to love the self. How do I express love and nuturing for myself when I still have all the daily routines that must be tended to? I began my starting to be present with each action of my day; asking myself..."Is this a loving act for the self?" Then I slowly began to make affirmation statements to my loving self in each action, from making the coffee, to pouring in the vanilla creamer, to sitting in a comfortable spot, to relaxing in the chair, to taking in the atmoshere, the smells, the lighting, how my clothes fit, my breath, to sipping the coffee, feeling the warmth on my tongue and the sweetness of the flavors..."THIS is a loving act that I am doing for myself!" I brush my teeth because I love me. I do my dishes because I love me and I am deserving of a clean cup and spoon (for the coffee and vanilla creamer of course, lol). Doing the laundry because I love the smell of fabric softener in my sheets and clothes. To plant flowers in the yard, mow the lawn, sweep the porch...because it makes me feel good to have my home look this way. I do it ALL with the affirmation that I am doing so because I LOVE ME!
Now, at 37yrs old...my well is finally repaired and full again! And so can yours!
Do each and every act today with the rememberance that it is a loving act to do for the self...FIRST!
I love me and I love you too!
Namaste
Jen
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